Sacrifices and Ripple Effects

January 15, 2018

I have had many a terse conversation with doctors about the sacrifices they make to medicine – all they give to take care of patients.  I recognize and respect their sacrifices, sacrifices of time, energy, mental health.  The suicide rates for doctors is a crisis in itself as highlighted in this recent post in the Washington Post – “What I’ve learned from my tally of 757 doctor suicides.” The effects of the sacrifices that doctors make to the profession are real, but they aren’t the only ones who sacrifice.

There are ripple effects.

There are consequences for those immersed in medicine, surrounded by it.  For those of us who are not doctors whose lives are intricately linked to this profession that can both hurt and heal in the most profound ways.

When I have these discussions with doctors, they have no idea what I’ve sacrificed.  I haven’t been able to talk about it before in more than obscure references.  But now I can and I think what I have might be worth saying both to understand my advocacy better and perhaps, even more importantly, help doctors gain another view of medicine – one that holds compassion for their lives and also asks for acknowledgment of ours.

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I Survived

January 13, 2018

“And at last you’ll know with surpassing certainty that only one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth. And that is not speaking.” – Audre Lorde

I have survived:

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Dear Friends

December 22, 2017

A thank you to those who are here and those that stayed; an apology to those I lost.

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The Burden of Disease

October 9, 2017

The burden of disease.

The cost to society.

That is how my life is measured – in dollars and cents.

It plays out in the news and health policy with sensational headlines like: The High Price of Failing America’s Costliest Patients.

And every time I see such a headline, it makes me feel like I am a drain on society.  I am a burden.  My very existence costs society, a detriment to society by these measures.

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Stigma and Borderline Personality Disorder

September 29, 2017

Stigma against those with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is endemic and rampant in the medical and mental health professionals.  Such stigma is often expressed overtly as well as subtly to patients, impacting their care in dramatic ways.

This stigma needs to stop and it needs to start with not only the public but with providers of all kinds assessing their biases and misunderstandings of this illness and taking responsibility for their actions.

Here I present the research on the most pertinent research surrounding this issue.

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I won’t live my life in the shadows

September 28, 2017

I wrote a tweet thread today but I think it’s important to post here too.  Each tweet starts with ♦.  And while the thoughts connect, they should stand alone as well.

There is a lot of pain in these words. Please have compassion.

September 27, 2017

♦ Re-upping this post after today: This stuff is not okay.

My Post: My Abuser Found Me Online

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Healthcare Does Not Have a Problem With Silos

August 3, 2017

Healthcare does not have a problem with silos.

In fact, there are no silos in healthcare; there are only boundaries.

If we truly want to change healthcare, we need to break boundaries.

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